Can We be Utterly Sincere with Ourselves?

Can we speak our minds without the compunction nor regret of the consequences before and after respectively? Is it possible to catch each and every thought as it appears in each and every corresponding instance? Can we take the thought and look behind it – at the intention that is the swimming tail of the fish? Can we then, slicing off the tail, render any and every thought immobile? And even in doing so, shall we then also question our own individual motives and, likewise, sever their motors? If, as a policeman, you saw the faint silhouette of a bank robber fleeing with a bag of stolen cash in the serene darkness of the night, would you not shine your torchlight on him, thereby catching him red-handed? Or would you hesitate – thinking that you shan’t be troubled – thinking that someone else should assume your responsibility and therefore risk the danger of retaliation from the bank robber? Would you not then be troubled by your incessant guilty thoughts of having chosen not to intervene right away when you knew that you could? Would you not then spiral into the whole automatic process of incessantly replaying the very same scene of you letting the robber off scot-free over and over again like a broken tape recorder? Then, would you not suppress these additional thoughts and hope that they wouldn’t ever surface again by distracting yourself with other thoughts – family and friends, self-indulgence, work, what you’ll be doing the next day – all of which are akin to blasting music to drown out the shrieking lady’s cries for help just down the street? Is that why we turn to faiths – belief systems, religions and their institutions – so that we can box up what we simply do not want to face? Can we question the existence of this God that everyone loves casually tossing around for mere lip service? Shall we ask, in all earnestness, what it is that this God really is? Then, first of all, we must look at what the word ‘God’ implies in our minds. What comes to your mind when you think of ‘God’? His ‘son’ Jesus? Buddha? The Messiah – saviour? Heaven? Peace and lack of suffering? Lack of physical and psychological turmoils? Will you then so readily scrutinise and question the source of each and every one of these thoughts as you would the naysayer’s arguments against the existence of ‘God’ each time before countering them? Then, will you not eventually arrive at the same perennial question of what precedes the mind? Can we be utterly sincere with ourselves for sincerity’s sake (or rather, without it)?

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